blogging.

I have decided to blog NOT for other people but for myself.
I have decided to blog to get my own thoughts in order.
I have decided to blog to talk about things I can't talk about to people.
I have decided to blog about my views & my opinions where I won't be interrupted.
I have decided to blog to date my life & see where it goes....

I have always been able to write.. to captivate.
To be able to suck people in.. wrap myself around their minds...
BUT
I have never been able to write a short story in my life.. Or anything of that story.
I'm so amazing at English... but I cant write about things that I don't.. "care about"
I guess...

but the real reason WHY I wanted to start blogging is because :

I honestly have so many ideas & thoughts going through my head just before I go to bed. I always think "I should become a writer" "I know I can write" but .. It wouldn't be a horror book or a romance book.. It would be a book about my life.. from start to finish. I still remember my first memory. It is slowly starting to fade from my mind as I get older... Its a piece of my childhood that I really do love. It seems as I get older the parts I remember most fade.. So I want to blog so that I can remember things for what they were. Not what I want them to be.

Maybe one day I will write a book , It will be successful , People will relate.